For the Holidays
Posted by shellyswriting
21st Dec 2018

The nights are the hardest. We tend to wish the days away yet we barely get through night time without thinking about the world and our significance in said world. I can tell you about feeling lonely, I can tell you about that overwhelming feeling of complete numbness that seems to talk over, and the feeling of emptiness in times like this. In times of the holidays. That's when we can feel the most empty, the most vulnerable to succumbing helplessly to our numbness.

I want to tell you that you are not alone, you never will be. Although not having a physical being by you can definitely make you look at this in disbelief. Yet I plead with you; we are a world of people that have issues, and that is what we have in common. There are also a significant amount of people that suffer from mental illness, I would know, I'm one of them and my best friend is another one of them. Yet we're all human, we're together hanging onto the thin thread of hope that lies deep down within us. And with the holidays arriving, we're holding onto that thread of hope very tightly.

So let me ask you this, have you looked out at the moon, and taken a deep breath? Looked out at the stars and thought of the possibility, that maybe, just maybe we're not so insignificant? If every millionth star makes the night sky worth looking at, worth indulging it, then maybe we aren't so insignificant. As every one of us problem-filled people need to exist for the world to keep going as it is.

Now, I ask this of you. Look at every light that has dressed up our cities. Look at the Christmas tree in the living room. Look at the people you love. Look at the one thing you're passionate about or things, look at what has kept you going for so long. Think about your significance towards that or them. If you gave up in these Holidays, will anything be the same?

As I write this I look towards a list of universities and the anxiety is slowly threading itself through my veins. I've turned the list over, it's not something I need to think about now.

Day by day. Take it day by day.
Moment by moment.

You can do this.

All my love,

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