napoleon wrote:but i cant do this anymore and its not getting better all by itself so what actually am I supposed to do. wait? how long? I've hung in there for 16 years and I'm tired.
It won't get better if you kill yourself either. You've done well to hang in there for 16 years and you need to keep going. Focus on better things, not ending your life. Don't think too far into the future, just take each day at a time and get plenty of rest too. I care and do hope things improve I really do