I am very new here and this is my first post.
Over he past couple of weeks my husband has had a downfall within with mental health. He has always suffered with anxiety but i have never seen anything like this.
He has admitted that he doesn't want to live like this anymore, living in fear. He is very fearful about everything. I have called the doctors, been to A&E and he is now on medication (Anti-depressants) He is only about a week in with the meds but they don't seem to have touched him yet, but i think that is normal.
He has a few appointments coming up for therapy and also with a counsellor, we have had to pay private for them as unable to get help through NHS,i know i am lucky enough to do this and i am grateful for that.
I just feel like i am not doing enough. I've stopped eating much myself, scared to have a shower that's to long, removed all medication from the house, sleeping on egg shells, working from home. I just worry so much! and feel very alone.
I am always happy when i am with him as i don't want my mood to bring him down. But i must admit i do cry when i go to toilet and bring myself back together.
I just want my husband back
Hope everyone is ok out there xx