I have suffered with general anxiety disorder and depression (undiagnosed) for many years, compounded by a number of family/life stressors. In the last few months, I have developed migraines (aura with numbness in right side) and chest pains. I have undergone tests and been in and out of hospital/a&e and the only thing anyone can tell me is I am a very healthy and strong young woman. This leaves me with the realisation that I have not done enough to manage my emotional wellbeing and put others first and my body is now sort of saying.....no. I have always said i would rather it be me having a hard time than any of my family members.
I am wondering what your thoughts are on physical symptoms and if anyone has had similar. I don't know what to do to help myself anymore. I can't escape the stressors so feel stuck on how to mitigate them. On the surface, in my professional life, I am a bright, smiley, relatively successful person and I can't help but feel repressing my emotions outwardly and not staying authentic to them has caused my mental health issues to manifest physically. I feel like I'm losing my mind and it feels as though I have no future to hope for, even though I know I have so much potential and much to offer.
After referring myself for therapy through the NHS, I started CBT online. This is doing absolutely nothing for me and feel I need a deeper talking therapy. It's hard to say if 2020 has been the straw that broke the camels back.
Any advice/anyone feeling the same?