I'm sorry my replies have been so delayed. I've been very stressed lately with having to juggle work with practically every spare minute having
to be dedicated to my needy boyfriend.
I've wanted to reply but every time I would get a chance, I'd have been mentally exhausted. I've been thinking of you.
We talk everything out (at length
)and on occasion I have had to be assertive - like thanks and all but I don't want to live with you and
I've realised that he's considerably less mature than I had assumed when we first met. (I was baffled why someone so obviously out of my league and "together" was even remotely interested in me.) His mum does the washing, cooks the tea etc. She's insinuated on numerous occasions that he never
cleans and he looked a bit lost making us a sandwich for lunch one day, bless him.
Absolutely no need to apologise. Thank you for being considerate. <3 I'm probably at the cusp of a relapse, yes. But I'm more
in control of the illness than it is of me. My mother has been very upset at the fear of things spiralling again. To be honest, it hit me today as I didn't realise how things had managed to actually get
like this again. I'm okay though, still functioning well, and I've been addressing it. Anorexia is just something I'll always have to deal with. Maybe I'm cynical, maybe I'm just real, but at least in my
experience I don't buy the whole "fully recovered anorexic" jargon.
It's something I'll have to manage.
I'm sorry to hear that you're saddened by not hearing from your old GP. *HUGS* She was too genuine, showed too much initiative and was too supportive for her to just not contact you.
Honestly, I think either she has misplaced your number (and due to patient confidentiality, your GP surgery would obviously not be able to now give her your number) or that there has been a situation within her personal life/family which warrants her mind being elsewhere. <3
I know for definite that it is not a case of her "changing her mind and no longer wanting to know you". Absolutely 100% not the case! <3
I think she would be both touched and delighted to receive a letter from you! I encourage you to send the letter, definitely.
Include your number in the letter incase she's lost it!
I'm sorry to hear that the house is causing so much disruption and stress. Keep on at them because eight weeks with no oven really isn't acceptable. I'm sure it will look beautiful when all the work is done.
I'm sorry to hear that your psychologist is leaving the team. Surely you're still entitled to a monthly phone call check in from another member of the team? I know that Mind can provide this sort of support with someone checking in with a weekly or fortnightly phone call.
I had an appointment with my care co but messed up with my rota and had to cancel. Now I'm struggling to get hold of her to rearrange. I want to chase up when the residual 3-4 sessions can go ahead and/or if I can otherwise be referred to a different eating disorder service closer to my locality as the health boards changed last year.
I'm so sorry to hear about the recent health scare. I'm relieved for you and your mum and your family that she is okay. *huge hugs* <3
Would anything make it easier for you to make the call to your GP?
Is there any way at all you could change your role within your current job or change your job altogether?
You say your partner is threatening to leave. Is it your house or is your house split between you both? What are you afraid will happen if you do tell her to go? Is there any way you could stay with your parents temporarily? Honestly, do you
deep down honestly in your heart still want
to be with her? Is there anyone who can help you assert yourself to her?
You are not worthless and you are never going on. Please do reach out. Even if my head is frazzled, I will be reading, caring and will send replies to let you know I am thinking about you.