Thank you. Initially my anxiety around the job was really high. I think a lot of that was down to me not having any time to actually process it and sort out all the pre-employment paperwork.
Yesterday, I had my first day off in two weeks
so decided to take up the job and thus managed to sort the documents. Start date probably won't be for a while so I haven't said anything to my boss just yet. They're desperately short staffed at my current workplace and (whilst they don't give two figs about me), I am considerate enough to hold off giving in my two week's notice until I have a definite start date. The boss has just broken her ankle and is off for 4-6 weeks.
My care co. didn't tell the psychiatrist I'd changed address so he called my old house phone. So I missed the call.
I've finally sent in my registration forms for the GP surgery so once I get an appointment I can self-refer to the local cmht.
Ehhhm so turns out a week or so after the football, his mum told my boyfriend that she saw me giving him the eye not to say anything about my parents coming with us to the game when we hadn't invited her. She told him she thought I was rude. He regretted telling me this when I reacted by crying and saying "I knew she hated me! Well, I don't care what she thinks anyways!" Today, he told her we'd decided not to go to an upcoming rugby game (which we'd planned to go to with her after the uninvited football game episode) because "rugby wasn't really our thing".
I think he would have said that rugby wasn't really my
thing because it's not
although he denied this. Oh well, can't please 'em all. I didn't mean any harm and I only wanted to spare her feelings.
My partner and mother both seem majorly worried about me. Above all, my mother is worried. She came over yesterday and I honestly couldn't wait for her to go. Nothing bad happened or anything. I just wanted to be alone. She's really concerned about the amount of work I'm doing. She really wants me to get out of this horrible workplace and is thrilled about the new job. I think she has high hopes that it will fix my current problems by giving me that sense of appreciation and self-worth that the shit place I've been working so damn hard at has sucked out of me. Although she did say today that if I carry on I won't be working
at the hospital but will be a patient
I'm so sorry to hear that S has been so hostile. You really don't deserve that.
You have no reason to feel guilty. I'm glad that you were able to have a lovely time.
I'm glad you've got back some personal space and have moved into your bedroom.
Argh, I'm really sorry that she benefits from the money your parents put in
You're right though, and I totally get you, just draw that line and do what you have to do to get it done.
Aw that sounds like a really positive final session. Well done you! Great that you really like your care co. and that you get on well too.
Yes, phew! I had the period. Have absolutely no desire for any physical intimacy and think a fear of pregnancy could be a part of it.
I'm okay. Hope you're doing okay, too.