I'm so glad you know that- you are that person, and you deserve to feel it, because it's who you are. I can understand the difference between seeing it in your real life and hearing it on the forum etc, but what people say to you here is just as true- you're a very good soul, who helps others a lot and has a genuine impact. Time to believe it, attmp. And amazing mutual support work by the sound of it. Thinking of retraining at all?