It would be amazing if everyone was honest for a day...I bet it would take so much pressure off people!
No-one lives the life their younger self has imagined, because you grow and things change. There is always time for a new adventure or skill which will enrich your life. Maybe not so much right now but hopefully soon!! 44 is young and you are tackling your issues which a lot of people avoid all their lives.
Keep being a good person, lots of people value that