I completely get what you mean, hearing everyone say it's going to get better even though you only feel worse or people saying stay strong, that is one of the worst things ever, I myself would be a hypocrite if I said those things because I know they don't work, personally I know what would make me feel better, however it is unachievable, deep down we know there is something that will help us just a little bit but most time we don't say anything because it could be too unrealistic. I also believed there was nothing that could ever make me want to stay alive, but there was, I want to experience having friends, real friends, people I can be myself around and feel like they really love me, and also be able to have my dream job. Unfortunately, these things are unrealistic in my life, but I know if I had these things, I would fight to stay alive. Have you thought about what you really want? And if you have, is it realistic and reachable, or would it be something that people would call crazy?