Blogs by CJBanorexiawarrior

26 Nov 2022 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Anorexia: An open letter to my body

Dear body,

Thank you.

I wracked my brain for hours trying to think of a punchy, snappy opening line for this piece, but at the end of the day, the only thing I can say – the only thing I can really, truly say with both honesty and conviction – …

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05 Sep 2022 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Anorexia: Some days are just like this

It came out of nowhere and slapped me across the face. There had been no warning and no trigger.

Saturday morning was much like every other; my alarm went off at 5.30am, and by 8am, I had run a half marathon. And, as usual, my run had left me floating …

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15 Feb 2021 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Anorexia: On The Edge

As somebody who has been ‘acquainted with’ anorexia since 2014, I can say that more often than not, a sufferer is always ‘on the edge.’

On the edge of recovery, or on the edge of a relapse. On the edge of finally snapping, grabbing the voice by the throat and …

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11 Dec 2020 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Anorexia – I Refuse To Ruin Another Christmas

I Refuse To Ruin Another Christmas: Me, 1 – Anorexia, 0

I love Christmas.
I love the extended family time and the blessing of creating precious memories with our nearest and dearest.
I love the widespread merriment and the illuminating blanket of twinkling lights that engulf every town …

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05 Aug 2020 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Poem: Love From, Your Body

A poem about anorexia nervosa

Please, I just want to know – why are you doing this to me?
What was wrong with the old you? You’ve changed, can’t you see?

I think you and I first started falling out in 2014, in the month of May,
And …

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22 Apr 2020 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Skinny Love: Dealing with an anorexia relapse while planning a wedding

Mental illnesses are a strange beast. During the darkest throes of an episode, it is notoriously impossible to ever see a way out of the suppressing disdain. In contrast, during the beautiful journey of recovery, it is equally as difficult to fully recall and relate to every detail of one’s …

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20 Feb 2020 , by CJBanorexiawarrior

Poem: Just #bekind

A crowded room but you feel so alone,
The mask you wear, the transparent conviction of your tone,

The walls are closing in and the darkness is growing,
The smile on your face is strained but the pain isn’t showing,

The world is judging, all eyes on you,

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