Hello lovely Embellina
I completely lost it in my therapy session
Good! That is what it is for, be open and honest, lose it when you feel like it, then the therapist can see you for who you are and better help. All good!
The internal bully bit is horrible isn't it? I see myself as the only jailer in my own prison, which is then another reason to beat myself up
. BTW Apologies to Isap if you are reading this, I know my simile can't compare to the real thing. My thoughts are with you.)
I'm spot on with the worthlessness because I know it too well. The lack of response to a cry for help can really pull the rug out, leave me distraught. At least we have the camaraderie of all being in the same boat. hugs
Your message on my thread was appreciated, it has even inspired me to take the day off!
I'm going to do a bit of shopping, meet some people and maybe watch a film this evening. First things first I need a shower, feeling seriously rank after having the heating too high and farting under the duvet all night
Take care of yourself, you deserve it.