Difficult time, my life feel fractured and I know I need to make some decisions, but i cannot trust my judgement when the depression has me in its grip. I also always struggle at this time of year, (see previous posts for reasons).
Hopefully, things will improve when I go back to work next Monday. We have had a longer than usual Christmas closure, this term is starting a few days later than the last few years. Work does seem to help me focus my mind, and I have some plans for the next few days, sorting and boarding the loft out, and decorating.
Still swimming nearly every day, built up to about 1 km per session in the pool, i think it has saved me (so far) from sinking into an even darker place. Downside is my waist is now what it was when i was 20, 31 years ago, and none of my trousers fit me! Even had to punch holes into my belts!
I hope you all have a peaceful new year, thank you all for being here. Mutual support helps, more than some of you may know.