I have got an appointment with a psychologist I’ve seen before and a support worker who I don’t really like, she was rude and aggressive the last time I had a meeting with her and I don’t want to go to another meeting with her. I was sectioned a few years ago and tried to commit suicide a few times in my late teens which got me involved with the mental health services in my area.
The problem is that was nearly 20 years ago and things are different now. It seems what was considered normal then is not now and things are different with what people consider acceptable behaviour. And the problem is this support worker is just weird, I don’t agree with her over hardly anything and she seems mean and judgemental in a negative way against me and treats me like I am stupid. In truth I cannot really stand her attitude and personality.
I am planning not to go to meeting and I don’t want really to see the support worker again because of the personality clash, but my situation is bad, I am on benefits and live in a housing association flat which I might want to end up moving out of due to noisy and rude neighbours.
People used to listen to me years ago, but now they often dismiss what I say, which is frustrating, this is why I don’t want to go to the meeting because I got dismissed so bad the last time that I felt like committing suicide again.