I just answered your other post. After reading this I really think you do need to go to the doctor. You don't have to take meds, this is optional. If you see a doctor that only wants to talk about meds and you choose not to.. see another doctor.. and another.. until you find one that will look at alternative options like a referral to a mental health service or some grief counselling or whatever fits.. If a GP won't take you seriously, see another one. Just stay focused on what you want and that you need help and you will find someone supportive. Some GPs are amazingly good.