I have just read this thread and hope that at some point you feel strong enough to revisit the forum. You are a welcome presence and it is a poorer place without you. Yes there are lots of triggers on here but there is lots of camaraderie too. I hope you remember that we all post based on our own viewpoints and conscious or unconscious biases. Even if someone means well, it doesn't make what they say true. As much as I may believe in some of my opinions, they are just opinions, not facts, no more certain than anyone else's.
Take care of you and yours