Hi bels, sorry to hear the UK doctors haven't helped as you would hope. Please take strength from the fact that you have been here before, and have come through. You have shown your resilience. You are growing, as we all are, spiritually. It is almost birthing pains? You will come through this.
I recently came through a dark period when someone passed on the message to 'lay down your burden and rest'. I hope this may help you also.
Sometimes the world can seem like such a dark, dark place. Yet there is always light, and it will always find us and shine on us again.
Be safe my friend, you are an equally important part of the human race, of the Universe.
Regards to you and yours, beach xxx