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hopeandrecovery wrote:I'm in the process of recovery from anorexia and I'm gaining weight but not coping with it. I've found myself self harming now and using alcohol to cope with the weight gain, numb my emotions, and silence the critical chatterbox that is in my head 24/7. I'm constantly having suicidal thoughts and yet I REALLY don't want to die. I'm sinking into a deep depression and my anxiety has reached intolerable levels. Any advice on how to deal with any of these issues would be greatly appreciated.
I'm on the autism spectrum (very late diagnosis) and I've had to cope with anxiety and depression most of my life - and only now are things starting to improve - and autism and anorexia are often closely linked. Emotionally you might not like the idea of gaining weight, but rationally I'm sure you know that for you it's a good thing. You need to find safer ways of coping with anxiety, rather than risky ways. Also try to identify the triggers, and as far as possible try to avoid them. Really work on it, and don't give up. Email me if you want on lamposatmaildotmd but please don't give up. Think of all the good and beautiful things about life and concentrate on those; think of those who care for you and love you, and strive to live your life well and to the full. It can be hard work but it'll be worth it. x