Tonight is one of those horrible evenings where what I want is completely out of reach- connection. Compassion. Someone to talk to. I feel completely alone. All I have are my parents, who quite frankly, I can't have an honest conversation with because they just don't get it. But I just want to connect with someone likeminded- my age, etc. The only connections I have I have to talk to through a screen, looking at a screen, typing a text, sat alone, simply being a loner. I have quite a few days every week like this where I just feel so desparate for companionship but it's completely out of reach. I've been a loner for years, and it feels like it's never going to change. I feel like everyone has priorities..kids, job, dinner, their needs. I'm never important. I'm an afterthought. It feels like there's nothing I can do- I need the connection now, but real connections for someone with anxiety take months, if not years, to form.