I've not been coping very well. For the last nine days I've been having constant panic attacks, throwing up, all I want to do is hurt myself or die. I don't know what to do anymore, crisis team are doing nothing for me.
My mum and dad have moved 300 miles away to the south of Wales and I haven't been able to see them for months. I didn't even get to see them on my birthday or at Christmas and it's taken a huge toll on me. My first Christmas away from home. I'm not sleeping, and when I do manage to nod off I have nightmares and wake up after a couple of hours, and then I end up panicking too much to fall asleep.
I've been prescribed tablets but I'm too anxious to take them, I know they're safe to take, I'm just too afraid that they'll make me feel weird or not myself. My boyfriend even took one to prove that they were fine to take but I.just can't do it. I don't know what to do anymore.