Hello all, I'm new to this forum, so hoping this topic is OK to post in here.
I'm in a long term relationship but have never been sure about having kids. I'm now almost 35 and still feel as lost as ever in this world. I've struggled with my mental health for most of my life and have always wished that I simply didn't exist.
I moved to a new city and country to try and find meaningful work, something I could be passionate about. I still haven't found that and have been hating my job, despite it paying relatively well. I have recently been wondering about having a baby but our families are all overseas so it's just us here. My job is just a job, whilst my partner has a career. And our relationship, whilst good most of the time, has its own challenges to work through.
Will having a baby help give me some purpose? Could having my own family help me with my sense of self and improve my mental health? And put things into perspective? Or am I being totally ridiculous/selfish to even contemplate a child within this context?