I'm new to this never posted on anything before, feels kind of strange being here and finally admitting threre's something wrong other than to myself.
it's nice realizing your not alone with how you feel. Most people don't get it, or understand how low you can feel or scared. life with a mental illness can be so lonely even when you do have other people around.
I've had social anxiety and avoidant personality since I was in my teens I was in an adolescent psychiatric unit for a year when I was 17 due to depression fear of people and inability to communicate. After years of bullying family problems, sexual abuse for 3 years from boyfriend I became disconnected, suicidal and hated everything I was. although not now suicidal I struggle with everyday life highs and lows, I never socialize, I feel like a freak, not normal, no confidence or selfesteem I know I need help to get my life on track but the very essence of social anxiety is being afraid of going out and being with people, so how do you get around seeing a dr when you are terrified to go and know even if you did when you get there your so scared you say nothing?