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kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Mon Jan 23, 2017 8:51 pm

Today's been ok, no one's said anything about me when I was put but I kept checking to make sure no one was their, then if I was in a crowded place I was leaning against the wall.
I still feel bad for what that girl said about my application form, I don't understand why they get away with chatting personal details in a public place. But I mustnt dwell on it.

I've decided to loose weight, it's one of my points that stops me from gaining paid work. The other is people taking the Mic out of me or trying to get rid of me which I can't do anything about. Even if I moved out the area they'd look at me name and start digging dirt up and pick on me.

kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Tue Jan 24, 2017 9:13 pm

Bully boy of neighbours shouting through the wall, God I wish he'd leave me alone, it's only cause his girlfriend's gone work. He only does it when she's not their. He's such a creep.

kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Wed Jan 25, 2017 10:46 pm

I apologise for being outspoken I can't help it, I've moulded in ti this way over the years, but I have realized and am understanding how my illness through an article.

andthistoomustpass
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby andthistoomustpass » Wed Jan 25, 2017 10:57 pm

Hey Kat

You don't need to apologise for your posts here. Feel free to speak out. I'd be worried for you if you stopped being honest here, where I am happy to hear from you.

I think you are right not to dwell on stuff. Thinking about things only makes them stronger. I'm trying to find and focus on positives, that way my positive thoughts will become stronger. BTW. Well done for your continued outings.

I need to start losing weight too. I really am far too big. I'll start cooking again rather than buying stodge on the way home. I keep telling myself to start walking to work too. I'll start with walking home I think but first I need to get sleeping properly. Can't do anything tired.

Good luck with your efforts. From what I've gathered from your posts, you are strong enough to reach any goal you set yourself.
x

cj4
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby cj4 » Wed Jan 25, 2017 11:58 pm

Hi guys. I'm new here so don't really know what to say. I've been unwell for a long time with severe anxiety and depression and self harm, my doctors know all of this but I've hidden stuff like I switch off sometimes but my mind keeps working, I hurt the ones I love the most, I move but I can't control where I'm going. I want help but I'm too afraid to get it. That's why I'm here I guess

kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Thu Jan 26, 2017 7:44 pm

You have come to the right place. Have you thought about going doctors, accessing councleng, therapy.

kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Thu Jan 26, 2017 7:53 pm

andthistoomustpass wrote:Hey Kat

You don't need to apologise for your posts here. Feel free to speak out. I'd be worried for you if you stopped being honest here, where I am happy to hear from you.

I think you are right not to dwell on stuff. Thinking about things only makes them stronger. I'm trying to find and focus on positives, that way my positive thoughts will become stronger. BTW. Well done for your continued outings.

I need to start losing weight too. I really am far too big. I'll start cooking again rather than buying stodge on the way home. I keep telling myself to start walking to work too. I'll start with walking home I think but first I need to get sleeping properly. Can't do anything tired.

Good luck with your efforts. From what I've gathered from your posts, you are strong enough to reach any goal you set yourself.
x


Thanks, it's not nice living next door to him, he's really annoying me. His mates are the same. If it wasn't for me hearing about the loft and what was going on, I wouldn't have been any wiser. But now it worries me at night when I'm asleep, I wished we'd never moved here, if I knew who lived next door I would have not bothered moving here. But as I am not working I can't afford to move.
The worst thing is that I heard the printer working last night but my tablets knock me out I can't do anything but listen.

andthistoomustpass
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby andthistoomustpass » Sat Jan 28, 2017 12:26 pm

Kat, that must be an awful feeling.
Just goes to show how strong you are that you can cope with everything and still push forward to improve your life. Things will get better. You are making them better with every positive thought, positive plan and practical step, such as your outings.

I'm rooting for you.

kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Sat Jan 28, 2017 6:18 pm

Thanks

I don't feel positive but it will come in time. It be nice just to motivate myself and others to have a good clear out. It won't take all my worries and concerns but it'd make me feel better.
I do feel ok, but don't feel settled with what I know now. I have tried to make a barrier of beads and attach it to the cieling buy it broke in my hands. I might have to rearrange my room somehow.
My ideal home would be a dormer bungalow or a house with a flat garden front and back, no steps to the entrance and an extra room downstairs with downstairs bathroom. I find these things help me get through the day, a spring, dreaming of nice things.

kat32
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Re: You don't have to go through this alone.

Postby kat32 » Sun Jan 29, 2017 10:25 pm

Hi, I'm ok, I'm just thinking about where I went wrong last year, if I hadn't have applied for loads of jobs and going to interviews, and kept on my IT placement Iight have been offered the job. But then again if I hadn't gone to interviews then I would have been sanctioned. I miss helping people with computers, being in an environment where helping clients like in community hub in activities made me feel like I achieved something.
But I don't know if I will be given a chance to help others again. Everyone wants me to work in Care, I like the idea of Activities assistant, worker and social inclusion but I'm worried that if I do go in Care they'll just get me to do the dirty work. Even when I see the activities post advertised I apply but get turned down.

I have ideas on setting things up but I don't have the money and no support on that front. I did ask about freelance but he said it was better to work for someone in IT, but with no paid experience it's hard.



I guess that I should be grateful for whatever I get, it just hurts knowing that others get to work in their chosen field they have studied for. I feel like going back to writing stories and trying to sell them on but I can't concentrate enough to start. I do write, jot down odd chapters for my second book but I don't have the time, due to jobsmatch, interviews, home. If I could get part time work helping in IT, or activities, I'd have time to write and explore craft but at the moment it's not possible.

I doubt I'll get work as I've had unsuccessful replies. I've only had two interviews this year. Last year it was one, two every other week. I guess what's being said about me is mainly the reason I'm not getting anywhere.
I shall keep on trying but its just the norm to me.


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