feeling very weird today. yesterday i was pretty even all day, and i was even happy in the evening spending some time with the girlfriend
today though, im all over the place again. started fine, then start to go that familiar numb, zombiefied way. then just before lunch, i felt like i was going crazy. i was seized with a crazy urge to do something stupid, like hit someone or scream loudly at the top of my lungs. fortunately i managed to fight this urge
i starting think it might not be garden variety depression i have. or maybe this is a side of effect of the anti depressants? anyone got any advice?