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sirhugo
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weirdness

Postby sirhugo » Fri Dec 01, 2017 1:41 pm

feeling very weird today. yesterday i was pretty even all day, and i was even happy in the evening spending some time with the girlfriend

today though, im all over the place again. started fine, then start to go that familiar numb, zombiefied way. then just before lunch, i felt like i was going crazy. i was seized with a crazy urge to do something stupid, like hit someone or scream loudly at the top of my lungs. fortunately i managed to fight this urge :D

i starting think it might not be garden variety depression i have. or maybe this is a side of effect of the anti depressants? anyone got any advice?

much love

andthistoomustpass
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Re: weirdness

Postby andthistoomustpass » Fri Dec 01, 2017 4:42 pm

Hi

Those sudden urges aren't uncommon with depression or anxiety. They are simply suggestive of conflict within your own mind. I would try to notice what is going through your mind when the urges arise. If you can identify the conflict then you can address it.

Obviously if you were ever intending to act on urges to hurt yourself or others or if your beliefs changed ie. you were suddenly convinced that you would win at the casino if you put everything you own on red or that the world is conspiring against you then that would be a different matter.

Hope that helps.

amaya
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Re: weirdness

Postby amaya » Fri Dec 01, 2017 6:37 pm

Maybe talk it through with a doctor, find out what can be due to meds, what due to depression and what cannot and therefore must indicate something else. It would be the quickest way to clear it up. If you are having a lot of it maybe write it down when it bothers you so that lately you can see it objectively.

sirhugo
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Re: weirdness

Postby sirhugo » Mon Dec 04, 2017 2:38 pm

thanks guys. sorry for the late reply. been off work for the last couple of days and ive been struggling to find the motivation to do anything. i tried to make an appointment to discuss it with my doctors but as usual they have no appointments that fit my work schedule. i got a phone appointment instead and im sure that they will fob me off as usual and probably just give me a higher dose. i also chased up my counsellors but apparently i could still be waiting weeks on a waitlist. At least ive managed to schedule an appointment with the occ. health team in work. hopefully they might be able to make live easier in work.

ATTMP i have no desire to gamble my life savings. and im sure that MI5 are not listening to my phone calls :D . my urges are usually to scream "im over here you f**ktards"

amaya
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Re: weirdness

Postby amaya » Mon Dec 04, 2017 10:59 pm

Haha Hugo that made me laugh.

Maybe in the telephone appointment you can tell them that you are hoping the answer won't be just an increase in meds and that you want a fuller solution that just that. If you tell them that before explaining the problem, they will already be thinking of alternate solutions while you are explaining what the issues are..
I hope between that and occupational health something will present itself to make things easier on you

teamn
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Re: weirdness

Postby teamn » Tue Dec 05, 2017 1:58 am

hi

not really sure what to suggest that hasn't been mentioned by Amaya already, I think that's definitely what I would do in your position.

id probably also shout out ,,,,I'm over here f/#ktards too, 9probably best to shout this in the park or somewhere where your voice can be drowned out, lol.

definitely discuss feelings and numbness to gp though

hope your ok tonight

sirhugo
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Re: weirdness

Postby sirhugo » Thu Dec 07, 2017 6:53 pm

hi peeps. thanks again for the replies. so the doctor calls and i tell how how im feeling. her response? "ill need to speak to you face to face" she gives me an appointment for friday despite the fact that i asked for a face to face appointment in the first place

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil:

doctors are some of the biggest "f**kwits on earth. at least ive got my appointment.

managed to get out some of my rage yesterday when chasing up some xmas presents. i screamed at the infuriating automated voices a few times :D

hows is everyone today?

amaya
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Re: weirdness

Postby amaya » Thu Dec 07, 2017 7:50 pm

I am tired and feel all used up by a hard week, but I am okay :)

Haha, I think maybe we need a thread here that just lists irritating but free automated telephone lines like that. We could use it as a kind of therapy. Ring up and just shout at the machines.

Glad you have your appointment and friday is only tomorrow so at least you won't have long to wait. Let us know how it goes :)

sirhugo
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Re: weirdness

Postby sirhugo » Thu Dec 07, 2017 9:31 pm

you could be onto something here. ill start collating :lol:

sorry youve had a bad week. i assume you already posted elsewhere with the details

have some virtual hugs :D

teamn
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Re: weirdness

Postby teamn » Fri Dec 08, 2017 2:41 am

hi

so glad you've got a face to face tomorrow, and hope you finally get some respite after the appointment and some clarity and much needed support.

I'm BLAH today, cant think of anything else to explain ... my daughter does make me laugh though, so i take in those special moments..

saying that i better get to sleep , or i wont be laughing when she wakes for her night feed and I'm knackered..


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