I'm sorry you had such a crap Christmas. I've had a few myself, but they were nothing in comparison to yours. I've spent the last three days alone at home, but today I'll be seeing my selfless young friend. I don't know what she sees in helping me and hanging around with me, but after so many setbacks I'm so grateful that she's there.
At least your lawyer isn't artificially building up your hopes - and that could be a good sign. I can't stand lawyers, for most of them are only in it for the money and status. Few genuinely care for their clients' predicaments or mental health. I'm mentally incapable of dealing with them. I see them as parasites and hypocrites, and far too many are sociopaths.
I never really knew my own brother - until it was too late. I long suspected he had Asperger's, but it was only after he'd gone that I learnt just how desperately lonely he was. He'd have done anything for me. Yours sounds the opposite. Does your sister support you? Can she do anything to influence your brother? Would other family members be able to help you?
I can't even think of anything inspiring to say, but I do find your posts inspiring. They make me thankful for small things, and put everything into perspective.
Never far from you, Mihaela. xx