Thanks for the update. That was fantastic to read. So happy that all the work you are putting in with your therapist is paying off. Also great to see you admitting to the darker elements still being there too, an impressively balanced and accepting approach
The mood diary sounds amazing. So good that you are identifying so much.
The ED team can go take a running jump off a short pier, with seagulls using them for target practice.
doing lots of creative things and socialising with my family
So glad you can see the upside. Maybe, in due course, when you are feeling stronger you can discuss reducing with GP but, for now, the meds sound just the ticket.Totally numb. It's weird and I hate it but it's a million times better than how bad I've felt before the medication.
Fabulous but I've left entirely out of the quote for a reason. Your Mental Health was what brought you here and it is what we talk about but I have also been privileged to see so many sides to your personality. Your MH issues are far from defining you, when I think of you they take last place behind the intelligent, fun, warm, adventurous, kind, compassionate, strong, committed and determined qualities that shine so brightly from your posts. If there is a voice in your head telling you I am just being kind, I am not, I am being completely honest about how I view Em.I'm learning to accept myself and my mental health problems. They're a part of my life but they do not define me
Brilliant!'m still taking on more nutrition so as to gain weight and I am trying lots of different foods and eating with my parents, which is nice. I realised I need to give myself the best chance that of getting well. Physical health is part of the treatment.
It does make sense and it is both a wonderful sentiment and very true.The love and importance of others, I can find right where I am now. I don't need to search for it again. I don't know if that makes sense.
I know how important work is to you for a multitude of reasons and I know how difficult it is to find other outlets at the superannuated seaside but I also hope that I'm seeing hints that you see there is more to life than work, that you can contribute, achieve and enjoy life in other ways too. You have nothing to prove to anybody. You are good enough as you are.
YAY! YAY! YAY!Nothing wrong with ambitions obviously, but this is a huge positive shift in thinking for me personally. I'm taking the pressure right off after years of being a perfectionist striving for the unattainable.
As your therapist and your mum say, there is no rush to get a job. When you are ready I recommend a friend's advice to me that the best approach is to find a job that suits you rather than trying to change yourself to suit a job. I am sure that when you are ready and you find a job that suits you then your ambitions will be fulfilled naturally as you put your considerable energy and talents to use without stressing yourself out trying to be perfect and without inner conflict because you would rather be doing something else. (This is most definitely a case of do as I say, not as I do )
Hell yeah!Better to be ready and succeed than to set myself up to fail
Lovely to hear from you Em and I am so happy for you. I hope you are able to congratulate yourself on how far you have come and look forward to the further progress you will make with your therapist.
Keep me informed.
Your admiring friend.