hey nomad, i understand your frustration...yesterday, i went into town by myself for the first time in 3 months, i got the bus both ways, and the whole time i felt panicky, like i just wanted to be home. spent half an hour buying 5 things in sainsbury's because my brain just wouldn't function properly.
it annoys me because i'm only 24, and when i'm well, i'm really social and everything. it's really frustrating to feel so out of touch.
mind you i went out alone again today, so maybe i am getting better.
my trip was to the dentist however, so not very happy! i went mostly cos i have a veneer on my front tooth (drunken plunge from a stage resulting in my entire front right tooth being smashed into my gum - ow!) and it's gone all squint. so i say that i want it fixed and the dentist says i would have to go private as it's a cosmetic thing.
AND i need a filling - so it was an unsuccessful trip all round - didn't get what i asked for and now i got to get a horrible filling.
it's so annoying! i hate my stupid squint front tooth. it is spoiling my incredible vanity. i am considering going to eastern europe to get it done cheap there...
anyway, sorry for hi-jacking your thread with my dental woes, i understand how annoying it is to feel trapped. i'm just trying to take things in small steps, stuff like going to the shop on my own or walking up to the doctor.
this board is really keeping me going as well; although my ex that i live with is nice to me, he doesn't really understand.