just wanted to get it off my chest.
Three months ago i found out that a referal to pschotherapy by my shrink had been knocked back, due to in my opinion having an inconclusive diagnosis. i actually want a label, even after 19 years, so i can have enough redibility when asking to participate in my own recovery by using services, instread of being refused access 'cos assumptions or prejugements are made- i.e. young self harm history female must only be personality disorder, cant be anything else.
havent harmed for 10 years, dont demand immediate crisis care, generally fine and functioning, but keep repeating stupid behaviours, which is why i requested psychotherapy to deal with it.
after the knock back asked for review of diagnosis, because im now expecting second child, and got no support after my last child when i was extremely ill, so dont want that to happen again, and wrote to the shrink to say i think diagnosis is the reason i cant get help.
so he went through the notes, did a few tests on me and diagnosed "highly likely" bipolar, great, but the "highly likely" bit as opposed to definately, proved my point, when i saw the crisis service during routine antenatal check, whilst sobbing with frustration, the nurse said my diagnosis wasnt definate (therefore precluding the really highly documented 1 in 2 chance of severe post natal depression that i nearly died from last time occuring again) so she wasnt going to rush the care plan. also i was told she wrote in my notes i appeared fine (sobbing, no eyecontact, aggressive responses... all sound fine to me!!!)
so, ladies and gents, may i draw your attention to the patient advice and liason services throughout the NHS who subtly kick butt on your behalf, as they try to not go down official complaints routes to keep figures looking good, so they stroke your ego, and get questions answered and make people aware you know your rights and are taking no rubbish.
there is always the threat of a coroner being informed that i have a dossier of contac with services as from my perspective, should the worst happen, i will at least expect and enquiry- not that they do any good as nothing changes but at least someone may get the sack.
anyway, regardless, i apologise to everyone ive been up all night complaining about, just coming out of hypomanic phase, so rest assured, i will be feeling rubbish any day now so theres your peace of mind restored.
all i want is for mntal HEALTH services to concentrate on keeping people healthy, not letting them all die through lazy staff feeling justified in holding inaccurate beliefs that allow them to get away with continuing mistakes
I'm not mad, I'm furious
When injustice becomes law, rebellion becomes duty