I started having health problems at the age of 8. Doctors assumed I just didn’t want to go to school and were no help at all. By 11, I was unable to function properly. I rarely went to school and became increasingly isolated. My family are very insensitive and uncaring.
Some 20 years later, I was disagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis, although I have other unexplained symptoms too that are still being assessed.
I have no interests, passions, hobbies or likes, nor do I have anything I dislike or hate. I have tried many activities (and stuck with them in the hope I’d get into them after a while) but they evoke nothing in me.
I have no friends because people expect me to be like them, but my unusual life to date has left me with a very different perspective, and made me more spiritually inclined.. People have told me I’m odd. I have tried altering the way I interact with others but to no avail.
I can’t get a job because I didn’t finish school and my health was so bad. I can’t afford to study because the government think I’m too old, and I can’t pay for it myself because I can’t get a job. So I have no career or financial prospects.
In short, I feel completely numb and disconnected from everything and everyone. Sometimes I feel like I’ve been in a coma for two decades because the world is very different now. Other times, I feel like I went to bed 8 and woke up 28.
Thanks to anyone that may actually read this. I just wanted to vent really.