I came across this forum while looking for some help.
I lost my Dad in November and was just getting back to normal when my Nan was diagnosed as terminal and sadly passed away 7 weeks later. It's really hit me hard this time. I thought I'd be feeling better once we had the funeral for Nan, but I'm just getting worse. I cannot stop crying, I'm exhausted all the time, I have no enthusiasm for anything and just think oh what's the point about everything. I've suffered with depression before, back when I was about 17 but have been quite stable, just having the odd bad day. I've never felt this low! I'm calling a staff counselling service run by my employer tomorrow but I just don't see it working, even though it has before. I'm so desperate for help, I feel totally hopeless. I've started having anxiety and panic attacks which is something I've never had.