I'm new here and don't really know how it works. I feel I need to get some things off my chest and don't have anybody to talk to. Hence me being on here. I've recently returned home (to my parents house) after some time abroad. I don't have many friends and haven't seen any one of them for over a month. I can't speak to my parents because they have their own problems and things are always tense between me and my dad (another story). I feel trapped with nowhere to go and no one to talk with. I feel very alone as if I'm watching other people live life why I just hide away and don't do anything. There is so much I want to see and do but have no confidence to go out and meet people. I feel useless and of no consequence at all. Nobody really cares what I do, everyone is busy with their own lives. It's a vicious circle because I sort of isolate myself on purpose as this is when I feel most comfortable, when alone. But at the same time I would love to meet others who share the same interests as me. But how can I meet people when I'm really anxious in social situations? I always feel like I'm going to embarrass myself by saying something stupid, so then don't say anything and then people take no notice of me. It feels like I'm destined to end up alone and dreaming of a life instead of living one.
Thanks for listening