Yeah thanks johnb. Im good. Each day has been better and better. Think the meds are kicking in lol. Had a blip a little while ago when i figured out i was being vastly underestimated and treated like an idiot again but caught her out. Finally accepted its over and time to move on. I know in my heart of hearts if she asked me to go back, i probably would but dont think i could ever trust her again. And its that which has made me realise to let her go and try to find myself before i open myself to anybody again. Its not going to be easy and the thought of it petrifies me. Im socially ackward at the best of times, and going up to and talking to women just dosent happen.
Thats really the only thing that now worries me from all of this. Being alone.
Think im destined to be alone