I have post natal depression and have some similar experiences to you, its a tough rd that your on an dthe endin relationship this wek, is still so raw that your emotions are even more shaken up than usual I guess. Its hard to rationalise thoghst when we feel like this, you just want pain to stop, and its right you cant go on like this, but have to think of another way another solution. that solution may not come tonight or tomorrow but if you can hang on in there it will come.
sometime when people are estranged or away from us, is not allways a reflection on us, its also a reflection of them, or a reflection of our grwth, we cant allways have the same friend as we would hope, as peole grow and change, month by month, year by year.
Type away for tonight, I'm up for another hour or so.