First of all, macncheese
, thank you for sharing. You want help, you sought out that help, and you made an action to try and get it. That shows that you have potential to get better because you can recognize your challenges, and seek out solutions. That may seem simple, but I think for most, that can be the hardest part.
I found my way here after watching Ted Talks. I started with Nikki Webber Allen's "don't suffer from your depression in silence," to Andrew Solomon's "depression, the secret we share," to Kevin Breel's "confessions of a depressed comic," to finally what really lead me here, which was Ruby Wax's "what's so funny about mental illness?"
... See the theme?
I've always been very introspective, always thinking about and analyzing my emotions, experiences, and challenges. Although I have suffered with depression for possibly 13 years, it has only been the last several years that I have actually tried take steps to "fix" it. I can't believe how long depression has taken over my life, it's make me angry!
I always put the needs and happiness of others above my own. I'm always there to listen and talk to people, but I never share my own problems - or if I do, it is very rarely, for multiple reasons: trust, lack of support, shame, lack of understanding from others...
Depression is a major thing that defines me. I hope one day that it won't be.
Anyway, a little about me: I recently graduated from college (first in my family), with a BA in social work. I am hoping to go back in the upcoming fall, to get my master's degree. I am inspired by the idea of working with children and families, but especially
children. I want to one day be a stable, trusting, and caring adult figure in a child's life, the way that I wish I had growing up. I recently became a court appointed special advocate, to work with a foster youth one-on-one and provide them with that support, someone who will advocate with them on their behalf, and spend time with them as a mentor of sorts.
One of my interests include writing. ^^ I enjoy writing, and I think I am pretty good at it. I also enjoy reading and drawing.