Hi, Scott, and welcome!
scotty94 wrote:More recently I have been told I have Autisic traits (although they wont say i'm Autistic); that I have traits of EUPD (they wont say I have this either even though are effectively treating me for it) and am having Panic Attacks... at least thats what what we think they are, as well as another of my good friends commiting suicide.
All of us with HF autism have EUPD traits. In women EUPD is a very common misdiagnosis. Often, especially when young, and especially if female, professionals hold back on diagnosing autism. I think this is misguided and can lead to a life time of difficulties and confusion. If they told you you had autistic traits, then the chances are that you do have autism - and it won't go away. I have panic attacks too, quite normal because anxiety is usually a big part of autism (and EUPD). I've also had several friends who ended their lives, a cousin, an aunt and maybe my brother. All apart from the aunt most likely had autism. Epilepsy commonly occurs with autism. When I was your age I had an EEG for they suspected epilepsy - although only mild.
Oh... I'm also Non-binary and half my mums side of the family do not accept that.. to be honest they just dont accept my mum.
I hadn't got this far, but I suspected it from reading the first part of your post. This is much
more common on the autism spectrum than in the wider population. Gender dysphoria and confusion is 6-7 times more common. Although it's possible to have both EUPD and autism, I pretty certain that at least you have autism - and probably the same type that I have.