Thought I would come and see what Sane is about.
I suffer from something, but dont know what and dont know how to explain it. It comes and goes. It happened again over the last few days, I woke up feeling confused and disorientated. I couldnt think clearly or rationally, I couldn't hold a conversation, I felt extremely depressed, and physically drained. It's like a thick black cloud is in my head. It alters how I think and feel. It renders me useless for days and I lock my self away for these periods, then it clears and I start to feel ok again. The change in how I feel is dramatic. I've had this for maybe 20 years.
I've tried different anti-depressents from doctors for about 15 years, but stopped taking them as it doesn't help.
I dont know if it's depression, or some personality disorder. But its ruined and still is, ruining my life.
The difficulty I have is getting help. Today I feel better, if I book a doctors appointment tomorrow, it will appear as if I'm ok, which I probably will be, yet yesterday I was in the darkest place I could imagine. How can I explain this.