Nope, that isn't the title of a p*rn film.
It is how I feel right now, head ready to explode with I don't know what.
There was a day when I would respond by hitting something inanimate.
There was a day when I would respond by getting drunk.
There was a day when I would respond by eating non-stop.
Now I know that this feeling of being an unexploded bomb is because of a strong thought / emotion I am currently unable to recognise.
Now I know that the best thing to do is to sit with it, explore it, identify it, make peace with it, let it pass.
I'm trying but I am scared of whatever it is, too scared to look just yet.
For all my self-awareness and knowledge of my mind, I still feel like the fuse has been lit and I am waiting to go boom!