Oh, you poor thing!
I can't believe how cruel people can be. I've suffered a life of cruelty and persecution ever since I was about 9, had no friends for many years, was painfully shy, and must have cried a lake of tears - so I know what your going through. Luckily my parents were very good to me; it was others who were bad, from school onwards. I've been made fun of countless times for being too caring, too trusting, too honest, even too intelligent. It took many years before I began to fight back, and I sense that at last I'm winning. But this needed a lot of help from friends. Without that support I don't know where I'd be now - and I still need it.
You may feel helpless and confused now, but with help you'll overcome all that damage, and you'll find your life will become more and more worth living. I can help you here on this forum but if you contact me on lamposatmaildotmd it might be easier. (There's no PM facility here, which is very frustrating).
If you have no friends to help you, you now have me at least and I won't let you down. I'll do all I possibly can to help you find more friends and support. Please don't worry yourself too much. Things will now start getting better.