Another Saturday lost to sleep, I'm so fed up of it. Yesterday I was so optimistic about the weekend. I had two plans for Saturday one if it was nice and one if it rained. Don't sleep I thought to myself, get out of bed and make the most of the day/weekend. But, what happens, I sleep in until 1pm, I eventually drag myself out of bed and have a coffee sat in my arm chair and I fall asleep again. Its' Nearly 3 o'clock when I wake, I got up at this point and got out of the house but this seem to be the routine, I feel awful, sleepy so I have to get out to get a coffee and walk around just to feel ok.
It's so annoying, I work all week and then sleep the weekend. Is it the case that my life is so empty, lacking in thing to excite & stimulate my mind that all I want to do is sleep. I do feel my life is lacking in pretty much every aspect. I sometime wonder if it is just myself imagining life is so bad that it actually makes it so bad. No matter what I try to do life seems so empty, friendships, no relationships, unable to achieve or live the life I would like too. Admittedly my depression isn't as bad as is once was but I wonder if I have carried traits from depression and anxiety prroblems on in to my life now. Certainly confidence is an issue but only in the case it stops me doing or being the person i would like to be.