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velvet
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Sleep

Postby velvet » Sat Jul 07, 2012 4:56 pm

Another Saturday lost to sleep, I'm so fed up of it. Yesterday I was so optimistic about the weekend. I had two plans for Saturday one if it was nice and one if it rained. Don't sleep I thought to myself, get out of bed and make the most of the day/weekend. But, what happens, I sleep in until 1pm, I eventually drag myself out of bed and have a coffee sat in my arm chair and I fall asleep again. Its' Nearly 3 o'clock when I wake, I got up at this point and got out of the house but this seem to be the routine, I feel awful, sleepy so I have to get out to get a coffee and walk around just to feel ok.

It's so annoying, I work all week and then sleep the weekend. Is it the case that my life is so empty, lacking in thing to excite & stimulate my mind that all I want to do is sleep. I do feel my life is lacking in pretty much every aspect. I sometime wonder if it is just myself imagining life is so bad that it actually makes it so bad. No matter what I try to do life seems so empty, friendships, no relationships, unable to achieve or live the life I would like too. Admittedly my depression isn't as bad as is once was but I wonder if I have carried traits from depression and anxiety prroblems on in to my life now. Certainly confidence is an issue but only in the case it stops me doing or being the person i would like to be.

velvet
Posts: 34
Joined: Mon Mar 03, 2008 11:08 pm

Re: Sleep

Postby velvet » Sun Jul 08, 2012 3:21 pm

Again I woke up late today, feeling tired, low and a bad headache. I tried to get up, set my alarm but just end up switching it off. It's as if I can't drag my body out of bed and I just want to lay there all day.

The thing that bugs me, is that I realise what's happening and I often think I should do things on the weekend but the oversleeping puts an end to that. The other problem is that I will try and do things and will sometimes manage too, but at the back of my mind I know I'm do things for the sake of it, to motivate myself. It's never a natural thing, it's always thought out, for a reason.

For so long I've thought of trying to get out & meet more people, in fact I couldn't think of anything better but it doesn't work. I'm almost out of ideas and despair at the thought of it. It's not that I don't have friends but for one reason or another I can't get people out to socialize, I seem to be drawn to negative people or people who are not good for socialising. Not that I don't like these people it just seems to be the case. Most activities for me are on my own.


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