It all started about 9 years ago now during a relationship i thought i was happy turned out to be the worst. my doctor and police officer called it mental abuse. i was always but dont and everything was my fault. a prime example would be after having my little girl a week later i found my x talking to other lasses on the internet, after i pulled him about this he would turn it around saying well its not his fault im the one that got the internet in

After about about 6/7 years of being told day in day out your useless i started to believe it. after 2 family deaths within the space of 2months i caught him cheating and that was the last straw. myself along with my two children moved but in to my mam and dads. my dad then got took in to hospital for an operation and later on another family death.

at this point my life was already upside down. i am normally the strong person in the family but that has always been a show.

A month later i had a letter saying he was taking me to court for fight for the children. he put himself on the benefits to get legal aid, however i was working a full time job. which has left my in debt.

after nearly 9 months of sharing a room with my children we finally got a home to ourselves however i was still getting threats from me ex partner.

i get no help what so ever of him and pay for the children myself because i work full time i dont get much help apart paying my childcare im in debt and i'm living on about 40 pound aweek.

im struggling at work aswell at the moment i feel everyone is against me
after the kids go to bed i just cry i cant sleep and struggling to eat properly and i am losing the strength

there is a few times where i have thought why do i have to go through this im ready just to give in however my kids get me through it all

i have just come off my tablets however and really thinking of starting them again just to take the edge of the hard times.

i have come on there to try and gain help and to talk to people who understand as i really cant talk properly to anyone and dont know where to turn to

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