I'm Sumit. Some incidents make me feel suicidal. Such as- 1) My cousin threw me some rocks on my head and told me I'm not capable to study here in US and I can go back to Britain . 2) People thinks that I'm paranoid person and crazy. 3) School staff go against me and thought that I might be making some story and mis-believed me. 3) I feel regret because if i said anyone about suicidal feelings and last time school social worker send me to emergency room also in front of her I cut my abdomen and took 4 pills to attempt suicide. I feel remorse because why am i told this thing to social worker. I attempt suicide 2 times by cut my abdomen and took 20 pills. when i always talked to someone i feel bored and also feel very guilty + regret cause I can easily harm myself. When I worked with my teacher, sometimes my teacher works with scissors to cut paper but another time if scissors is on basket my thinking is completely disorganized. I started to cry sometimes tearful but i have anger issues. I believe to stop anger helps me to hurt myself. This monday when i met with 1 crisis team members, it makes me angry. I don't know why every week i feel like to harm myself by anything in front of me. I met with many counselors and follow thru their advice but it never worked. I have anger issues. Even so, one day when my cousin threw me some eggs and poured milk on my head that time I was awkward position. I beat him by baseball bat but never killed him. While I'm angry, my mood swings during the time of situation. I'm 18 years old male. I'm from Great Britain . Right now I live in Cambridge , Massachusetts , USA . My some relatives discriminated me about my religion or race. I'm a active member of Buddhism. Last year January 2010 through December 2011(this year) really gone bad for me. I got bullied physically, emotionally 25 times this year. I'm extremely upset and don't know what to do. I'm totally give up emotionally.

I know this is a huge story for everyone but it is really hurt someone feelings.

With thanks- Sumit