A little bit of kindness goes a long way
Posted by Caronhw
26th Nov 2014

Today has been really interesting. I'm finding the patients to be far more caring and considerate than some of the staff! Mr Arora has seen me again today along with his junior doctor to review my medication. I am now on two different types of anti-depressants, an anxiolytic and an anti-psychotic, all of which should stabilise my mood. I'm feeling more and more like Dylan from the magic roundabout! Hey man, peace!! Seriously though, I've met some truly nice and EXTREMELY interesting people today and I genuinely mean that. (Patients that is) I've dispensed hugs right, left and centre, held people's hands and cried with them. Believe it or not, it's been great. So many poor souls struggling along, just needing a little bit of TLC. Well that's something I can give happily and willingly, and it sure helps me feel less hopeless/useless/worthless....a WIN/WIN situation then! Not sure the patients would agree with that, but hey! I've got hugs and you're getting one, like it or not. Ha!!
I'm Nil by mouth again from midnight tonight, as having a general anaesthetic tomorrow morning for my ECT session. Let's hope they don't mess it up this time round! I think I've finally sussed out the staffing situation now. Some of them are lovely; overworked and stretched too thinly, but doing their best in difficult circumstances. Some come across as not giving a damn (no-shit-Shirley being one of them), but fortunately she is in the minority. Sadly, speaking to my fellow 'inmates',many of them feel the staff don't care, and treat them coldly, and with indifference. I could say more, but I don't want to disillusion anyone else who may potentially have to be an inpatient here. I'm sure there are plenty of people who do recover and have a mostly positive experience. In my eyes it appears the medical staff here have lost their 'human touch'. What does it cost to hold a hand, put a sympathetic arm around a shoulder, infact, SOD IT, give them a full on, heartfelt hug? Well that's what I'm going to do during my stay. That can be something I can do to give back a little bit of the love that you have all afforded me. ( I may miss out the odd smelly patient though) .will update you all tomorrow after I've been electrocuted ;-) Thankyou for being a big part of my recovery. I owe you all big time! Xxx

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