When is something going to improve?

Why do we have to wait so long for help when we are in desperate need. I know there are many people in the same boat but do we not matter to society? I manage to work 15 hours a week at my local hospital, I look after my daughter, my husband and my pets yet I have a severe mental health condition that often sees me utterly debilitated. I feel confused, agitated, anxious and desperate most of the time. I have been waiting 4 months for a psychiatrist appointment to review medication and possibly seek a diagnosis. I have been on the waiting list for trauma therapy for 4 months.

I feel my life is passing me by.

I have tried exercise, swimming, walking, I have had many years of CBT, mindfulness, distraction techniques. I have cut people out of my life who had a negative influence on me.

It is so tiring.

I did read another persons blog about not fighting depression but learning to manage it. It's such a relief to have the support of others on this site.