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Nobody knows what she's holding back
Posted by agmorris75
4th Aug 2014

Ok so if you had had cancer and thought you felt a lump coming back, everyone would panic, rush you straight to the doctors, get you help. If you are unwell people notice and feel sorry for you and send you love and prayers, it is visible.
But if your illness is in your head, how do people know? Do you have to shout it to the world to get noticed and help? How do you distinguish between having a bad day and getting ill again? You get branded the moody one, the one who always has the depressed statuses, who has forgotten how to have fun, no one wants to bother or be friends with you. They don't ask how you are because they think you're just being moody. They don't think to pray for you because they don't know something is wrong. And sometimes you need someone to smile at you and give you a hug and let you know they are there for you, not push you away because of actions that are beyond your control. You need someone to pray for you, not bitch about you behind your back. You need more than ever to feel loved, not rejected. It's not even a case of wanting sympathy, its a case of wanting someone to care. But you can't tell anyone this. How do you show the pain? You can't. And so the fight continues.

So don't ever underestimate the power of smiling at someone, or asking them how they are, if they are in a dark place, just showing recognition of their pain and not pushing them away is the best thing for them. It is not attention seeking. It's a cry for help.

I have a blog that I started 3 years ago. I have come a long long way in the last three years and I haven't felt the need to update it for a long time but there is such a huge amount of stuff on there that might be helpful. A lot of rubbish too but like everything, you gotta oh through that to get to the good bit! http://www.anna1991thought4theday.blogspot.co.uk

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