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A visit to the GP
Posted by Daisy Duke
6th Mar 2013

Stephen Fry recently said the following "If you know someone who's depressed please resolve never to ask them why"

This morning I resolved to visit my GP as I am having what I would describe as an 'episode'. For me this is disassociation, extreme tiredness, anxiety and low mood/depression. Having received an appointment at my local wellbeing centre this coming Friday and struggling to go to work I felt I needed a certificate to not attend work for a few weeks to try and get myself together.

Unfortunately due to the current NHS system I do not have what I would call 'a GP'; we have a surgery (which I must say is pretty fantastic) which has lots of doctors and you get basically pot luck to a certain extent. The GP's are very good but there is no continuity of care. No one there knows me as a person, only what they can see on the screen.

And so this lovely doctor asks me 'So what has caused this period of down?' (He obviously hasn't read what Stephen Fry advised)

I wanted to shout 'I DON'T KNOW, I HAVE MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES! IF I KNEW WHAT CAUSED IT I WOULDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM WOULD I!!!!'

It made me feel like - There's nothing wrong with you, just get yourself to work! You're only a flippin secretary - how hard can it be????

I hate going to the GP surgery when I have an attack/episode; they always make me feel as if EVERYONE has problems - GET OVER IT. I wish I could say - here you go - just jump into my head and see what it feels like. You live with this for a couple of weeks and see how YOU get on.

Thank you SANE for being here so I can type this in a place that feels like it matters, it is a comfort to me.



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