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It's All Small Stuff
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16th Jan 2012

For years prior to my dysthymia diagnosis, I got mad at anything and everything. If some event during the day did not go as I wanted or I perceived it as "bad", my anger flared. And I didn't stay mad for a minute or an hour but for as long as a day or a week or maybe even for months or years. I allowed one negative situation to over ride all other aspects of my day even the pleasurable, fun and "good" events. I was unable to let go, forget, forgive and move on. Unable to live "in the moment", my bad days out numbered the good days. What types of things made me so mad?

dropping an object

getting stuck in traffic

my husband watching too much TV

a client cancelling a show

the local radio station changing the "time-saver traffic" report to "real-time" traffic

waiting in line at the grocery store

being put on hold on the telephone

a store discontinuing an item I frequently buy

a rain storm

my husband changing the radio channel when he drove my car and not changing it back after he arrived back home

Do any of these things sound familiar to you? If you get mad over little things like those listed above you are sweating the small stuff. After two years of therapy, listening to self-help CD's and re-inventing my thinking along with the help of anti-depressants, I've learned that every thing in life is "small stuff". I no longer get angry or even become slighted irritated at any of the events listed above.

I live my life in a state of gratitude and know that the world and my day is not "all about me". If fact it's not about me at all. Nor is it about you. We are all here on a journey, a mission and everything that happens in my daily life is meant to happen, to teach me a lesson I need to learn in order to grow and become a better person. I am healthy, able-bodied, have a warm bed to sleep in and a roof over my head as well as good food in my refrigerator and pantry. I have all I need. (Material gains will never achieve happiness for anyone. A better car, more money, a better job or being 20 pounds lighter will never buy a person happiness.)

Dysthymic Disorder is a low-grade chronic depression that affects 3 to 6% of the population, women 2 to 3 times more than men. If can ruin relationships and turn into a major depression very quickly, yet few people are talking about it.

In 2011, Robyn Wheeler wrote her true life story struggling with Dysthymic Disorder and thoughts of suicide and how she found a solution to her chronic anger and mild depression. For more information on Born Mad or to purchase a paperback or hardcover copy, go to http://www.bornmad.org.

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