An Anxious Moment For An Anxious Soul
Posted by cwmd1
14th Apr 2019

I'm not going to lie, this has been a really stressful couple of weeks. Last year was pretty stress ville too. I don't want to bore you with the details but it's been a pretty rubbish time.

I am someone who has anxiety so for me a fabulous, everything is going right for me kind of day (do those days actually exist?!) can still come with a feeling of angst. For example, feelings of "what if something bad happens? What if I muck up?" or a particular expression my granny used to use "aye it's a beautiful sunny day....we'll pay for this!" So when a bad day or time comes along it really is quite tough.

I am very aware that I have anxiety so some things I think about when something stressful happens is a. how am I going to cope with it and b. can I cope with it? Personally, straight away I have to be truthful with myself and answer simply I don't know to both questions. However, I also answer, but I'm going to try.

Two things have really helped me so far in this recent situation. One, is allowing myself time to mentally process what has happened. Normally I literally switch onto autopilot and just get on with it. As much as that attitude helped me short term, long term it didn't as the feelings of anxiety, stress, worry just caught up with me in the end. I have found it much better this time to process whats happened by simply accepting all my anxious feelings from the get go and not try to fight them or deny them. No, it doesn't take the anxiety away, but it has made it, so far, easier to manage and accept.

The second helpful thing I have done this time is to actively do something that I find keeps me busy, and I enjoy and that has been doing a spring clean of my house. Jobs that I have put off for ages I suddenly found myself doing. I realised that this way I can feel and see I have achieved something even in stressful, worrying and unknown time.

I think it is very easy when having a bad time to feel very alone, isolated and misunderstood. But I am learning that we are not alone and there are people out there who can relate and understand too.

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