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Feeling low
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20th May 2018

Well i don't usually write about my experiences with depression but this time, for some reason, i am.
This month, or should i say year, has been a particularly dark time for me, especially as i'm in a city where none of my family members are near. I can't remember the start of my depression but i do know that it has been a very long time. Alongside this, iv'e suffered from disturbing eating patterns and particularly negative thoughts about food. For all those who suffer with an eating disorder, it can have a terrible effect on your life and those around you who do not understand. I'm feeling somewhat suicidal as on top of the depression iv'e found out that my partner has been cheating on me for a long time. Not only this, but i lost all self-confidence, and believed in all the consistent lies. I can't explain the feeling as such, but i wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

But, at the same time, iv'e realised what a toxic person they were, and that if i did stay in the relationship it would only make matters worse.

One thing iv'e learned is to take a step back and think whether someone in your life has had more positive influences than negative, and for me it wasn't the case. iv'e realised that some people aren't worth your time, effort and commitment.


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