stuck in a moment
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25th Aug 2011

I once wanted to be a writer, this isn't what I had in mind. If you are reading this, I imagine that you are in some way affected my mental illness. I have a lot to be thankful for. I am married, have two kids who I love, I have a secure job and no major financial worries. People who I work with see me as hard working, honest, dependable and humourous. Yes, I can do all of those. But I can also be mean, bad tempered, irritable, withdrawn, isolated. I think you can guess which is the real me and which is the act. By my stage in life, I should be happy and secure. I feel as if my marriage is crumbling. I go out of my way to find things to moan about. I have begun to detest people for no good reason. I have recently begun seeing a counsellor, which is a huge step for me. I have no idea if it is going to help me, but at least I can say I tried. At times I feel the loneliest person on the planet.

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