I need help learning how to ask for help...
Posted by SANE
29th Aug 2017

The irony right?

Those who know me on a personal level, and even on a professional level to some degree know how fiercely independant I am. In fact, I pride myself on this fact, because it’s a skill that took a lifetime to cultivate and one that many quite frankly just don’t posesss. As great a strength it may be though, it is also a weakness. The same thing that fuels my life and success can be the very same thing that tears it all apart.

As some of you may have guessed I’m going through a bout of depression right now; even as I type these words I feel weak and am forcing myself to conjure the thoughts and articulate them well but it’s a struggle. My grandmother Mary Rogers passed about a month ago and honestly it’s been an extremly difficult thing for me to deal with. The pain lingers, and for various reasons her lost has impacted me significantly. I’m sad. It’s really that simple.

I know in time, the sadness and depression will pass and thankfully I’ve learned healthy coping mechanisms to help me through this period in my life but the truth is that’s it’s really tough. On a multitude of levels. The worst part of it though is that I don’t know how to ask for help, even when I truly need it. Truthfully I don’t even know what kind of help to ask for. Technically, I’m doing all of the correct things. Cognitive behavior therapy (think holistic and practical actions), seeing my doctor, working out, creating, etc, and nothing is really wrong per say, I’m just down. It’s a strange place to be in, because in many respects I’m at an all time high. My creativity is through the roof (although lacking the proper tools to create does add on to my depression) and I’m very healthy for the most part but I’m still having a hard time getting out of this funk.

I’m not sure what happens next honestly. Seriously, I’m in need of money, tools, privacy, support, counseling, opportunity and everything else in-between and I’m truly struggling but how does a person like myself ask for help? Who do I ask? Why would such an independent person ask for help? I would like your thoughts, ideas and feedback. How do you ask for help? Do you ask for help at all?

I need help asking for help…

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